Maybe my sense of calm the last few days has less to do with writing than I thought. Our last doctors appointment was Monday, we have had several days to just relax and I might as well admit it, pretend this isn’t happening- or at least let it sleep in my subconscious. Well as we prepare for the “experts” at Dana Farber I can feel it waking up in my stomach. I am nervous!
My two biggest break downs to date were after doctor appointments- appointments where we learned ‘good news.” It is the anticipation and build up of fear, it requires a huge release every time. We will be with friends after Dana Farber I hope they are prepared for my melt down.